These past couple of weeks have found me struggling to remain positive, trying to avoid the negativity that dogs me, and stay in the light that I know helps me survive. I’m 5 weeks post surgical, doing well physically (according to my surgeon), but these gloomy weather days are doing my head in. Perhaps it’s […]
Another few months have gone by since my last blog post, and I’m determined to keep it going this time! Poor health (physical and emotional) has kept me on the sidelines for way too long. Now, after having major surgery, continuing with therapy (in many forms), and the promise of Spring, I feel positive and […]
Two months since my last post, I’m further down the rabbit hole that leads to my depression pit. The difference now is, I recognize it’s always going to be here, for me to fight off and be protected from. Or…sink, and wallow til I get help. It’s a hard reality to face and actually accept. […]
I haven’t posted since July – 3 months and also a lifetime ago. Tons of excuses why not, but basically, I just lost interest. It became too much of a struggle to log on, sign in, and try to find words for what my body and brain were experiencing. I finally gave up the fight, […]
OK, somethings not right, and please Lord, help me figure it out! Those were my last thoughts before finally falling asleep last nite. Full of anxiety, and having chewed most of my nails off and moved onto the surrounding skin….it was apparent and so obvious…. I’ve been triggered by something and hadn’t recognized it in […]
Three years and a decade ago, I chose to ignore all my instincts, disregarded all red flags I’d been presented, and blithely made the biggest error in my life. With the purchase of a century farmhouse with 80 acres already in our joint names, I did have much hope, and prayed for the life we […]
Wow. It’s been a while…about 2 1/2 months since my last entry. So much for commitments and plans to write daily!!! Hahaha…and as my friend Salima has taught me… check your ego at the door! These past few months have seen me prep for my retreat or ‘residency’ I pompously call my holiday in PEI. […]
Nothing like receiving a phone call on your PERSONAL cell phone, for your ex husband at the business you walked away from 8 yrs ago. Just one more trigger to make another slash wound into my being. I’m already ‘on the floor’ in emotional pain with Bob’s anniversary, and physical pain from my epoxy experience, […]
I survived the Epoxy workshop – it truly was touch and go, by the time I arrived in Kingston to pick up Jo-anne. I had already messaged her, asking for her to drive to the event, and had a decent meltdown in her driveway. I didnt fold tho, and we carried on to the hotel, […]
The sun is shining and its gorgeous out….that alone is a travesty. It should be dark and dismal out, with rain slashing at the windows. I seem to remember the day itself being overcast and cold; and being made spectacular with a rainbow just after he died. That’s why they’re so meaningful to Bri and […]
